Monday, January 16, 2017

Going to cure my heart ✈

Going to be MIA for 3 weeks. I have precisely 24 blog posts to do. 50% sure I'm gonna forget what I'm gonna write for them. Probs need to learn how to revamp this blog since I've had this layout for ages. Also, might actually start doing travel posts...I see how I go after I catch up on all those food posts...

I think even in 50 years time when I am probably retired, I'll still think back to what happened. Within the past month I guess I've been more preoccupied and dragged myself out of the house rather than sulking. Initially I had to either get dropped off at work or catch the frikken bus because I couldn't trust myself to drive...I think these things will die down but a tiny part of me won't forget. Probably a reason why I hoard so much stuff and take too many photos...

I would be lying if I said I'm fully over it now. Feel better but I guess still angry.

Thanks to those for reaching out the past few weeks-you know who you are! I normally just rant here because it's easy to do, and I don't care who reads it on the receiving end. Talking to people does help put things into perspective, and many insightful convos. Just simple gestures of kindness does help you feel not as down.

Travel to cure my heart. Probably not going to do a spontaneous trip in the future, but holiday planning with a bit of stress helps to ease the pain and make the days go by faster. Even though I'm going to blow my savings, I don't think you can put a price on life experiences to help not feel so low, and hopefully come back more refreshed.

I have a sore throat and leaving tomorrow. Please get better in one night...⛛⛫Time to escape the summer heat.

Friday, January 13, 2017

KFD 2017: Cave Quest

Another year of Kids Fun Days completed. I wasn't originally going to help, but you all know what I was free this week to help out. Since I volunteered pretty last minute, wasn't a crew leader this year, but helped at a 'station' where the kids watched a movie and helped lead discussions. It's actually a bit less tiring since you don't have to follow the group of kids the whole day. Glow in the dark paint also exists, which made the walls pretty cool. 

Main hall


They had so many left that day...(they made like 10 boxes of these...)

Friday Feast

There was less children compared to previous years, so more manageable. The songs were more upbeat and faster this year as well. The kids learnt that: Jesus gives us hope, Jesus gives us courage, Jesus gives us direction, Jesus gives us hope, Jesus gives us power. 

It's the 7th year our church has run this program, and it's so strange to see how back when I first helped out, those kids our now helping out. I feel so old πŸ˜”

Thursday, January 12, 2017


As much as I love a good piece of steak, pork crackling and my fav protein duck, I also love my veggies. I actually have vegetarian stuff for breakfast and lunch normally. From greek yogurt, granola, almond milk etc to my jam packed salads with avo sandwiches. I thought dinner vegetarian places would be hard to find, but thanks to Dandelion, there is an impressive list out there!

Made a booking on the day, but didn't realise they were so busy. We had to give up our table by 8:15pm, but the timing turned out to be alright and not too rushed. It's not very big, but almost all tables were filled. We got seated at the back in the courtyard, and there was natural lighting through the awning. Definitely felt very 'hipster' like.

glass bottles used for candles and plants

Kale and cabbage salad w/ puffed brown rice, tofu, konjac, fresh mint, black fungus, smoked mozzarella and a sesame dressing (small plate)-$15.50

That was one good slightly creamy sesame dressing, with good texture throughout. Flavours balanced well. 

San choy bow w/ five spice tofu, lotus root, beans, baby corn, lily flowers, peanuts and coriander (medium)-$16.50

The flavours are a bit more salty and sweet in this one, and more lettuce would have been nice, but a good twist on the traditional san choy bow. One of the favourites amongst the table.

Baked zucchini and roasted Summer vegetable w/ balsamic-glazed bok choy, parmesan, chèvre, finished w/ cranberry and Shiraz compote and almond flakes (large)-$18.50

That cranberry and Shiraz compote was so delicious, definitely tied the whole dish together. There wasn't much zucchini or other veggies on this, but I just loved the slight sweetness the cranberry gave to the whole dish. Another favourite from the table.

Pan-fried haloumi w/ ginger and lemongrass sauce, fennel, shaved rockmelon, pickled beetroot and endive (medium)-$15.50

Haloumi is very salty on its own, but with the rockmelon and bitter greens, the whole dish balanced perfectly. Couldn't really taste the pickled-ness in the beetroot, just tasted less beetrooty- which is a good thing for someone like me who doesn't really like beetroot.

Roast pumpkin w/ cauliflower and kimchi, crispy capers, cashew cream and pea tendril-$16.50

Another super smooth cream here smeared on the plate.Pumpkin cooked well, and kimchi wasn't spicy but wasn't sure of what this did to the dish. 


Definitely recommend this place even if you're not vegetarian. So inspired by all the dishes here, and proves vegetarian food can be both delicious and filling.

Yulli's Menu, Reviews, Photos, Location and Info - Zomato

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

2017: Charcoal Grey

The theme of my year.

For those who've seen my Kikki-K diaries, I just wanted to point out each diary colour foreshadows my year. This year is bleak af. Not completely black because that's where holidays to try cure the heart comes in. The inevitable doom was not 100 but 1000% confirmed. Actually, it was even worse than I expected in terms of what I can and can't do. Typical of them to give only 3 days notice or less for stuff. What do people do if they don't study or work full time? Even hobbies, exercise, cooking etc all cost some for of money...I'm really scared about my brain going to rot, and my clinic skills are definitely going to go down the drain. All that hard work for nothing, and is just pushing us towards another step of failure before the final yr of placements hits. i.e. it's all rigged against the couple of us.

The fireworks looked pretty good on tv, if you exclude the super crap broadcast and forgetting the countdown, the lag and some bad quality cameras. Really loved how the colours and shapes of the fireworks was so in sync with the music. Sort of made me want to see it in person, but ceebs crowds.

Thanks Dandelion and Happy Apple for dropping by yesterday! Really appreciate your thoughtfulness, and yay muffins :) (Soz, didn't take a photo of them).

I have somehow lost heart to finish all these draft food posts...

Friday, December 30, 2016

2016 Reflection

Around 20 blog posts behind, and probably won't get time to do them until like in 2 months time...

It's safe to say 2016 is/was my worst year yet. It started off with a bang travelling to Singapore with friends and swimming at Marina Bay Sands. Actually learnt a lot this year, just sucks can't put it into practice, which is pretty much wasted effort. I really wanted to be an optom peer mentor which I got into, and also got selected to go to NT for placement which was super fun as well. Again, have to say goodbye to any plans for next year. Phone died in September, another impending doom, but at least I had the money and privilege to buy another, legit the next morning. Pretty much died 3 times in Nov/Dec, emotionally, physically, and maybe a bit spiritually....Argh, slowly getting over just a mark or two away from passing that tiny 1/27th component in what I would call a fake practical and rigged test. I can list a lot of reasons why it's rigged-not included in my previous 2 rants. You know what I'll miss next year-my concession Opal. Another πŸ’” 

Also living alone and first time ever I think I got food poisoning from outside food (not my cooking, since been too sick to eat) whilst balancing work in-between. Pretty sure you don't get a 3 day post-hangover. Just felt way too sleepy and normally I don't have naps. Ate something next minute....unless it was stomach flu or something, no idea how you tell the difference. On the other hand, living by yourself atm isn't too bad-just don't eat, or eat one meal a day. I'm not sure if it's because I'm still a bit down, or my stomach is a bit sick, or it's just too hot or it's everything combined but I can't have more than 2 meals a day. Or if I'm eating for the whole day, the day after I can't eat anything. Yep, body is screwed.

This year did also go downhill with family stuff, and also new neighbours moved in with a guy who studies music and is a frikken drummer. The house was not designed for this sort of stuff. I need to stop with the negativity. I guess I do question to God why all this happens to me. I still am waiting/hoping/listening for anything on WHY.

Christmas ham! no turkey this year...

I really don't like how everything is so commercialised. Christmas is all about gifts rather than the true meaning, that a Saviour is born. Also, the other day I saw an ad on a bus for Easter show tickets-like what?! Christmas only just finished.

Never going to drink 15 glasses of wine again. Although I see why people drink alcohol to try 'solve' their problems. It does make you feel less depressed. I think I'm just going to stick to my standard max 5 wines from now on....Everything was such a high quality though, kind of couldn't resist haha.

I know I definitely become more antisocial, or maybe it's just the unexpected turn of events that I would rather curl up in my own hole and not care what people think because it's fine being left alone. Only go to some outings/meet ups, but I know I should go to more. I think I'm in that stage of life where I'm happy to see people getting engaged or married, and even if I live alone for the rest of my life, at least I can #treatyoself everyday, and spend money on family and friends i.e. slowly giving up.

I'm still thankful for friends who I can rant to. 

Thanks Happy Apple for the macarons!

Kris Kringle was fun with 7/8, the highest number we've had in a while. Our high school group is notorious with missing each other by literally a day or two. Next time we all need to type out the names rather than hand write...

I've actually hardly worked at all so far these holidays, just only the last week of the year. I guess everyone I talk to tells me that it's ok to enter the working life a year later. Compared to other friends, some would've earned 3 years worth of money before I even step foot in a consulting room, which is a whole great deal. Then again, you only get one month of holiday compared to uni. It's times like these it's the time vs money situation-which is more valuable?

I feel too old to be braving the crowds and jam packed public transport to see the fireworks. Feeling too old for this.

Sunday, December 18, 2016


My page views have increased at least 4x since September, not sure why, but tbh idm people reading my rants. 

- Slowly getting over this heart ache
- I emotionally  died 3 times: 25th Nov, 29th Nov, 2nd Dec
- 1 day of crying=age 1 yr. Actually look 10 yrs older/more dead. Well I looked like a teen before, so I guess I look more my age...? Slow quiet sobbing throughout the day is worst than1 big burst of tears like when you were a kid...
- Slowly letting the world know, trying to avoid awkward convos
- It's as if you're running first in a race at the olympics then face plant at the end just before the finish line and end up coming last, so close yet so far=πŸ’”
- Still want to strangle someone
- Why me
- Why that particular task. it was a practical but I actually didn't even do or say anything. Didn't even fail theory. I would rather fail theory cause then that would mean I didn't know my stuff, but failing that stupid worksheet which wasn't even a proper prac is just plain stupid. Not even a real exam like a normal theory or normal verbal prac exam
- Still pissed
- Still think it's 99% rigged. Feel free to pm me. I am happy to say why
- Miracles do happen, but I feel not in this case
- I guess I'll be prepared for 'real life' events and future heart breaks
- Less than half the people are from the original yr, so obviously I'm not the only one experiencing this before...
- If this happened at the end of 5th yr, it will be like running, face planting, then people running on top of you so you suffocate and then physically die
- Next year isn't as empty as I first anticipated (hopefully)
- People can judge as much as they want, slowly becoming desensitised
- Better still have a job after if I'm going on hols
- End of yr retail is crazy, but it's a lot better if people are nice and willing to spend
- Need to stop sulking at home
- Should be happy for good physical health (slowly emotionally recovering), but good health shouldn't be taken fir granting 
- Diary colour foreshadowed my year
- 2016 started off good and went downhill and underground towards the end...
- Still haven't had time to finish off 2016 21st parties pt 2
- So many people getting engaged/married #foreveralone

Finally went on a Christmas the other day. TripView tells you it's a xmas bus, so was excited for my trip home.

'Santa' themed bus

there are 6 types, interesting

Pan fried salmon cured with rooibos tea (red tea i think), spinach, pomegranate, cauliflower, potatoes, mushrooms, pomegranate, almonds and other stuff, plus citrusy dressing and orange/mint flavoured water

Thanks so much Dandelion for dinner! Really appreciate your thoughtfulness πŸ’œ (the red heart disappeared...). Super delicious and filling. Good times catching up, and congrats on your promotion! Helps to get out of the house and stop sulking.

Uncle bought chocolates from Chile

Super expensive but nice to try chocolates from different parts of the world. It's nice but can't really tell what makes it different from other chocolates. It's not that creamy, but still sweet even for dark choc. Around 70c per piece. Got home late so some chocs were already taken...

Some people are just over achievers #goals, but I know my brain isn't capable of such knowledge. I really do love hearing people's life stories.

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Duck Duck Goose

Slight regrets not using Uber Eats when they first launched. They now charge $5 delivery fee (which they didn't around 2 weeks ago, since I wanted to order something, but my card didn't go through...) Still pretty sure the $5 delivery fee only came about recently. Please use my code guys $10 off foood: 

Crispy Miso Cured Egg with sencha smoked tofu, avocado, nori and sesame dressing on a warm brown rice, kale and umeboshi salad-$17

Duck Duck Goose is literally around the corner of uni, but no time to go during uni. The food arrived within 30min of ordering, just the guy didn't walk onto the campus grounds, so I had to go out a bit...Was surprised that this was piping hot when I got it, like too hot to place on your lap. The dish itself was pretty filling. The egg wasn't really crispy, but I guess probably from the condensation from the takeaway container. The tofu had a weird taste and was really firm in texture. I love green tea, but it was weirdly smoked in this one. The avo was nice and creamy. I really loved the flavour of the dressing and the salad. Probably a bit too over seasoned in the rice, but that helped to cover the weird flavour in the tofu.

I think Uber Eats is good especially if you don't have time to go the a particular cafe/restaurant and it's out of the way, but you still want to try their food. It's never going to be as good as the restaurant since it's not on a plate, so presentation is a bit dodgy, but at least the flavours are there.

Duck Duck Goose Menu, Reviews, Photos, Location and Info - Zomato